Confession time.
I have a big task in front of me that God seems to want me to do. All signs point to yes. All circumstances have led me to believe that God has chosen me to do this big thing. And, at every turn in this long process I seem to be telling God that He has chosen the wrong person.
I feel like Moses at the burning bush. God called him. And, Moses assured God that He had made a poor choice.
Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind?Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.”
Then the Lord’s anger burned against Moses. . . Exodus 4:10-13
But, He provided a way, as He does. Brother Aaron, Moses’ mouthpiece as he relayed the words of God.
Now, God isn’t telling me to confront a pharaoh and call down His wrath on Egypt. In fact, if you knew what my big thing is you would probably laugh. Still, this job seems just a little bit beyond me.
I just have to keep reminding myself that I don’t dictate to the God of the universe who He should choose for all the different work He has going on in this world. And, if He says I’m the one for this task, then I have to trust that He knows what He’s talking about and He will provide a way. In other words, it’s time for me to stop telling God He has the wrong person, and start having the confidence that He will give me the ability to do the job.
What about you? Have you been trying to convince God that He shouldn’t have chosen you? That your circumstances are too big for Him? Let’s just say it together: I trust you, Lord. Send me.
Are you writing a book? Can totally see Him calling you to that!
Yes, I have been trying to convince God that he chose the wrong person, that I am not qualified for the calling & am failing miserably (in my eyes). He graciously encouraged me through your words this morning! I will be saying it with you…”I trust you, Lord. Send me.”
Been there. Just like Moses, and just like you are now–realizing that He can do all things in me, and i can do all things through him–even when the mountain seems high or the oceans seem too deep.
You have no idea how much I needed to read this. Thank you.
We just returned from 3 weeks in the Congo (DRC) on a mission project that got going 10 years ago between a little village and our home church. Your writing describes some of my thoughts and the processing I’ve had to do with the LORD to receive/ accept and embrace this calling. He knows what He’s doing. We just have to say “yes” and follow Him, like the disciples did with Jesus.