Sometimes I think that, as imperfect and selfish and flawed as I am, if it weren’t for the Holy Spirit I would be a frighteningly sad excuse for a human being. Even with His power in my life, I am still so far from good. It’s scary to think about what I would be if I didn’t have Christ.
I am motivated by what is best for me. Yet, God uses me to accomplish things for His kingdom.
I am a selfish partner in marriage. Yet, God has given me a man who loves me and a marriage that blesses us and our children.
I am lazy. Yet, God helps me get things done.
I lack compassion. Yet, God sometimes breaks my heart for people and helps me want to reach out to them.
I am a know-it-all. Yet, God shows me how little I understand about life, people, and His word. And He gives me wisdom to be quiet.
I think about people I’ve known in life who aren’t believers, yet they are wonderful people–loving, kind, compassionate, and selfless. I don’t think I would be that way if it weren’t for the Holy Spirit’s light in my life. I can honestly say, having lived with my own thoughts and motivations for 35 years, that any shred of good or decency in my soul comes only from God. If I were left to my own devices, I would truly be a wretched person.
So, I thank God for saving me from myself. What I was is not what I will be. He’s still working. Sanctification is a life-long process, and I may be on the remedial track, but He doesn’t give up. He knows me better than I know myself. And for some reason He loves me anyway. Thank you, Jesus.